At first everyone take my salam .Asslamualikum…How are you my beloved enthusiastic, energetic, hardworking, active and jolly group mates? Hope you are hale and hearty by the grace of omnipresent Allah. I am also well.
Today I would like to say something about myself in this famous and life changing group search English. I am Tajmin Ara Begum. Now I am a student of Master’s of Business Administration (MBA) in Accounting in Government Haji Mohammad Mohsin College in Chittagong. Besides this I am a teacher also. Now I live in Chittagong town but I born and brought up in the village. I passed my HSC and SSC from my village home. As a village girl I didn’t get proper education especially in English. Because there had no good teacher for English. Though my SSC and HSC result was good. That time everyone thought that I am so meritorious student but when I came town after finishing my HSC exam that time I understood that I was so week in English.
After coming town I admitted coaching for appeared in Varsity exam but that time my preparation was not good at all for some problems. It was the incident of 2012. I faced financial and residential problem because my parents lived in village and my father’s income was not sufficient. My father is a small seasonal business and my mother is a homemaker. So on that year I didn’t take good preparation for exam. I gave exam in government Haji Mohammad Mohsin College and I got chance so I admitted there.
The next year I started tuition and again i admitted coaching and my preparation was also good. But unfortunately I failed in English for 0.94 in the exam of Dhaka University. If I passed only English I would have gotten chance to read in Dhaka University. I gave exam in Chittagong university also only BBA faculty but I didn’t get chance only for English. From that time I got afraid English. I always thought how can I overcome my weakness in English. I have been teaching many students since 2013 but I don’t teach them English. I thought maybe I won’t able to teach them properly.
After finishing my graduation on December in 2016 I started to write post and comment in this group but that time I didn’t take this group seriously because all time I felt nervous. But I always tried to write something. That time I worried about my grammatical mistakes and I had lack of vocabulary stock. Whenever I wanted to write anything I didn’t write because I thought maybe I am writing error sentence and people laugh at me or bother me. But in this group I never faced this problem. All member of this is so co-operative and they try to each other help.
After Eid-Ul-Fitar I joined search English group’s workshop. First day I didn’t talk because sir told at first newbie member hear everyone’s conversation. In my 2nd workshop I gotten chance for talking but I was so nervous and weak that I couldn’t continue my conversation properly. I was trembling with fear. Actually my main problem was lack of confidence. By joining workshop day by day my shyness was removing and I started to read search English reading syllabus. After finishing upto category two post I felt extra confidence in my mind because I gathered huge knowledge about various topics. Now I can talk easily without feeling hesitation and shyness. I can write something in my own language if I have idea on that topics. I was an introvert girl. I couldn’t talk anyone freely. I couldn’t express my happiness and sorrow moment not only English language but also in Bangla. Now I don’t fear in English. I can understand by reading English. I have no frustration in my mind now. Last December I told sir that from January in 2019 I will Teach English medium student but I got a job in January. I joined my job from 7th January. I never thought that one day I will overcome my fear in English I will get this. Because for this job there was so much candidate from Chittagong varsity. Everyone was senior of mine. So I gave up my hope. But in my viva exam I gave answer very fluently and confidently. That’s why I got this job. Now I am happy in my position. I will try for getting better job in future.
Really I am totally indebted to our honorable Razib Ahmed sir for my such improvement. Without getting this group and inspiration from sir I never overcome my weakness in English. Now I dream that one day I will become a fluent speaker like the English. Now I am trying to upload some video for my practising purpose. I want to be a BCS cadre. Everyone pray for me as I can fulfill my dream though it is not easy at all. I have to do hard work.
Now my hobby is reading though I don’t get enough time for reading but whenever I get time I don’t waste my time. I don’t like to give lame excuse for doing. I always try to help those people who are helpless. I always try to help everyone for this reason sometimes I fall in danger. I like to do hard work. I like my family very much. I don’t want to give any pain in my parents. I am so beloved daughter in my parents. My parents live in village and I and my brother live in Chittagong town. I give financial support in my family.
Thank you my beloved sir…..