Hey dear friend , Today I am also here to bother you . Hope you will not mind it. Because I have a right to convert your jolly moments into boring as a friend or groupmate . I know ,you are very much busy with your daily activities and practice too .
In this post , I will talk about my English journey . I was searching a topic to complete my today’s task . That time , I saw a post of our Kamrul Hasan vai where he put some questions to answer. I am going to answer those questions. That is why I am warning you that this post is going to be boring .
I suffered a little bit because of English but not like other members . Because you know , from our own perspective, our own problem is much harder than others . We always take others problem so lightly . Do not blame on yourselves , because it is human nature .
Well , lets enjoy a funny matter. When I was in class two I copied in my english exam . Do you know , what was that? The common question was “ What is your name ?” I wrote down my name spelling on a paper and threw below the bench . “ Zannatul Ferdous “ consists of 15 characters . How could a baby remember right ? Another thing is noticeable, I changed my name spelling into “ Jannatul Ferdows “ when I was a student of class six .
When I was a class six student , maybe 2nd of my class , our english teacher gave an assignment to read “ The Cow” essay . Happily I sat for reading it with my father but it was very hard for me to memorize. I could not remember any sentence though my father tried to make it easy for me . At last, he told me to say for second times at class six if I cannot read . I felt so insulting , I told him , no no…my all friends will laugh at me . I will read . I was saying those words by crying . Still now I can remember some of sentence like Cow is a domestic animal , it has four legs …….
From class six to 10 , I had two private tutors only for english . But I do not know why, I could not do well in english . I was always afraid of this subject .
In my class eight Junior scholarship exam , I memorized one paragraph which was written by my elder sister by her own language . At exam center , one of my friend asked me what did you read for paragraph? I told him that a book fair . He laughed at me and told me how can you depend on only one paragraph . Before than I was feeling proud that at least I have one paragraph but after hearing his words , I became upset but the matter of joy was that .I got common in paragraph section.
This tragedy happened again on me when I was a SSC candidate . Again my sweet sister helped me to memorize an eassy “ Physical Exercise” . Once again miracle happened. Actually my sister is a very industrious and talented girl who was just made an assumption after analysis previous question and I am lucky one too .
From my childhood , I wanted to be an Engineer. So at my HSC level , my father just told me to get “A” to be eligible for Engineering institutions admission . I was just praying. Luckily I got it.
In my Honors first semester , my condition was so miserable . I was just sitting on my table by holding papers . How could I will read all this sheets . But Alhamdulialh , My Almighty Allah does not leave me alone . I had a senior multitalented roommate who taught me by translating Bangla from english . But it was not enough . As a result , my first semester result was very poor like there was no places . After then I tried to take it seriously but I could not .
Above all was my academic level stories , There was not suffering matter but now I am suffering like when I try to read some websites or papers because of my need .I feel my depth in English . I just realize that you are good for nothing. After completing 16 years in student life , I am still fearing to write down something in publicly. I could not write an email properly without helping from my friends .
For my career purpose, I determined that I will learn english at any cost . Because I do not like this language very much. Truly speaking , if this language had no relation with my career or academic matter, I would not waste my enjoyable time on it like Chinese, Japanese …languages .
I love to speak in Bangla with full expression but Maybe due to the bless of Search English group, I fell in love with this language day by day .
What is your condition friends?
Thanks a lot for reading my boring post .
May Allah bless you .
Allah Hafez .