Hi everyone at first keep my salam assalamu alaikum my all beloved followers..I optimistic that all are well by the omnipotent of Allah..Alhamdulillah I am good too…
Most of group mates knows to me I am male as I am using male id that’s why it’s common problem I understand that…so last few days ago I decided that I will write something here about myself..but I can’t write long post due to fear…because every day I think that i will make lot of mistakes…anyway now I am going to write something about myself…
First all of you I amnot new members of search English group..I joined here about 1 years ago that time I used my real id even I was very active member but unfortunately about 8 months ago I changed my real id as well as I lost my all school, college and group friends..for this reasons sometimes I feel depressed and it makes me sadness..you know guys our country most of people don’t like fb even who are fb user their think bad ways…Although i have been living development country still I faced same problems..ok forget this issue
I am lima..my home district is sylhet..we are five sisters and two brothers..we all sisters are married and my eldest brother also married and he is a businessman and the youngest brother..he is a student as well as photographer..my mother is a homemaker and my father died by car accident long time ago when I was little..sometimes I think what is fathers love??I don’t know sometimes I think I don’t call abba in my whole life because he was a businessman and stayed in Saudi Arabia..my father was very hard worker and successful person in his life..he earned lot of properties and respectable person in our village every one calls him (molla vai)..our uncle loves us very much also he is still takes care us as like his own child..we also love him our own father and obey his all orders as like his own child…
Actually I was born and grown-up in village also I completed my primary level in madrasha in our village…then my family members decided that i will study in school that time I left my madrasha came to town with my family members and admitted to school..my school name is hazi mofiz ali girl’s high school and college ..when I was student of school that time I was good all subjects without English..because I was too much weak at English even I couldn’t understand English without note books and i thought it was very hard subjects for me..also my brother kept privet teacher for me after that I felt very hard ..because he was very strict alltimes tried to learn tense..but I didn’t understand tense and grammatical rules…my brother wished I will pass ssc one times because my all sisters got married their early ages when they studied classes 7,8 and 10..he wanted to see to me I will fulfil his dreams..but I had target I will pass ssc anyhow..Alhamdulillah finally I passed ssc in science group in 2008 also i got c+in English subjects then I admitted to sylhet government women’s college when I was inter 2nd year that time I got married then unfortunately I had to stop my study…
I came to England in 2011 then I wished I will go to college but unlucky I didn’t get proper support from others also I wasn’t serious about learning English even sometimes I went to community works for studying but I didn’t take any exam for my fear then one by one came to my baby…last few years I was very far away from study…
I think I forgot lots of grammatical rules and words lack of practising..
Fortunately when I got search English group that time I had seen few successful story such as anu apu,api borua and so on…once upon time they were very weak at English now their are an expert at English why I won’t ..at first time I just
tried to write one line sentences because that time most of posts written by English and bangla mixed..just few writer write English posts..I didn’t like to read long posts due to understanding power even I couldn’t write long comments as well as posts but when practiced here regularly then I saw my own improvement my own eyes..then totally changed my previous all thought and I liked to read any kinds of English articles…
But last year on 14 July in 2018 first time I went to Bangladesh for spending summer holidays that time I didn’t practice there just while I got little time just read posts but didn’t write comments..because long time later i saw my family members faces..Really that time I enjoyed too much also I saw everything is changed.our town home near lots of teen shed shops now there are lots of big buildings…my younger nephew and niece they’re all older …my all cousins are married now…I just spent here about 6 weeks then I came back to England on 25 August in 2018…then I changed my previous id some personal reasons after that i used current id that time I have lost my confidence I couldn’t write any single sentences easily for fear ..totally i had stopped practising here about 3 months..then one of my good friend she encouraged to me lima don’t delay again try to active there I will help you..she is non other her name is Aaqueena saleeha …
Now I am practising here about 6 months using this male id..always I am silent learner in this group because nobody knows to me also I feel uncomfortable in this id because I am being female how can I use male id..I don’t miss single days every day when I get little time try to come here for learning English…
By the way few days ago our group founder Rajib Ahmed sir declared that if you want to improve your spoken English..you have to make videos..first time I didn’t take this challenge because my family members forbidden to me also I thought I am using male id so how would I make videos?? But when I saw most of group mates took this challenge that time I couldn’t control myself..
I also had taken this challenge because of I am very bad at spoken English..I saw before who hadn’t spoken English one second their can speak English fluently without any fear…
Although I had to Faced lot of problems but I didn’t stop to making videos..Alhamdulillah
Finally I completed 1000 videos within 1 months..my position is 53
Now I am fully confidence about myself I don’t get fear to spoken English and don’t feel nurverse as like before…I believe that if I practice here about one years then I will be completely an expert at English..
I had forgotten to write one thing now I am studying our local primary school..it is 6 months course..I Will be taken an exam end of July this year…so every one please pray for me so that I can pass easily…now I don’t fear to take exam like before..i strongly believe that search English group is my another family when I fall in any trouble this time I can’t think am I right or wrong..this time I write post about myself and I get proper answer from my dear group mates… all group mates are very friendly and helpful…I want to stay here rest of my life..
Lastly I would like to give big thanks our respectable Rajib Ahmed sir for giving us such wonderful place for improving our poor knowledge…if sir doesn’t open this educational platform then I couldn’t get all an opportunities.i owe to sir and pray to Allah
That give him long life for going great works ..whatever already I have written long post 🙂..
I know I have lots of mistake..please take it positively…anyway thanks a lot for reading my boring post dear brothers and sisters..
Allah hafez for now.